December 10

It is December 10th 0:25. I checked my finances and noticed the charge for my SquareSpace website. Realization that I need to be using this thing.

Today I lead a Christmas event then came home and wrote some inventory for CODA. Writing inventory is difficult, I don’t really care for it.

Leading a discussion tomorrow maybe but I don’t wanna go. We watch these Nooma videos, which I liked at first but now I wanna bash my head in every time Rob Bell pleads in this ernest and mewling platitude. He does this when he is makeing his point about Jesus Christ or God and they love us. The accoustic/ soft rock swells and he stares very intently into the camera and sounds like he is about to cry at any second and I really can’t stand it. Rob Bell is ok I guess, he seems like a nice enough guy but I also want to punch him and yell SHUT THE HELL UP!!!!

I draw pictures sometimes and have avoidant attachment style. I have not had sexual relations in a year. Over a year. Christ.